So This is Love
I haven’t done this in awhile.
It used to come
So naturally to me.
My life has changed, and for the better.
But if that means giving you up -
It would never be worth it.
You were
And are
Always there for me.
When I want to boast of wins,
Criticize my weaknesses,
Understand my challenges,
To learn how my heart operates.
You have always patiently listened and I know it couldn’t have been easy.
I am rusty,
But it terrifies me
To glimpse a future without you.
Especially when I can so easily reach into our past
And drown in our endless memories.
No matter what it takes,
I will fight
To keep you in my life.
I am sorry I let us drift this far apart,
You have always had a thicker spine than me.
As I write this apology to you,
I cling to the thinnest page of hope
That we can go back to what we once were:
A girl and her diary,
A woman and her journal,
A dreamer and her fantasies,
A lover and her soul.